Project Issue

Let me talk about Episode 2. Again, I really don't like seeing myself on TV, thin and disheveled. I guess, I'm really better in person. LMAO

This episode made me feel sad and happy. about myself. Well, you really have to consider things that would hype you in a competition. Yes, Character is what we are, Competence is what we can do. And that's right, I totally understand.
I wasn't aware that I was too bossy and almost throwing bad words. If in the first place, I asked that person in that event if there was something I did wrong or made them feel insulted. Maybe, it needs to be in that kind of way. Well, I hate surprises.

And I'm not really dominant, because if i am, they wouldn't really like it. I was just being wise about the time and how to finish the clothes in a short span and I would never blame anyone on TV. I would rather help someone in need rather than putting up an issue. If I were to make an issue, you would really not like it.

Oh God, I can't wait for our reunion........

In my head

Serenaded by bullshit
Fireworks in my lungs
In my head
Like a paisley print
Among other monochrome
Drifting by
In this clandestine dream
My sanity
So virgin
Lucid and vivid
Your face
Drafted
Like a stain
Replenished
A silk in the dirt
I couldn't clean
Wanting to veer
Out of this trance
Like a snot
But I can't

I will be

The world seems so cold When I face so much all alone A little scared to move on And knowing how fast I have grown And I wonder just where I fit in, the vision of life in my head...

While on the traffic, This is what I decided to write

The first time I saw you

In a quarter view

Where the ray of sun hit me

Your eyes

Your lips

Caught in a glimpse

Perplexed me

Never knew it would still linger

To my temporary vision

That leads me now to certainty

Don't know how long

Don't know how far

The pavement

Where I am and have always been

Inescapable

In finding you

Friday 14th

I love Fridays, after a long day of running around from south to north, QC to Makati, undying work meetings. It's worth all the running. I even enjoy having coffee alone at this moment, with my notebook, listening to Beyonce's Halo (think sasha fierce is nice, oh not all), looking at different people, how they smile, speak with each other, with their stories with them. Surprisingly, There were 7 mute people who just sat beside me, 5 of them are gays, then 1 lady and 1 guy. I just love how they speak with each other. One guy even requested to have his phone charged to where my battery is plugged. They even have their own laptops, using cameras online with their friends. I just adore how they do their sign languages. Remember Kapwa ko Mahal ko way back, So touching.



Sana lang bilisan nila ang pag-charge kasi malo-low batt na ang laptop ko.

Soundless

Dear God,

I'm requesting for a Love Life.


Patiently Waiting,

Patrick

Ruby Tuesday

I actually had fun today. No work, lots of sleep and eating, even my vitamins made me alive today. Tomorrow is the premiere of Project Runway Philippines Season 2. I really don't know what would I feel if see myself exposed in TV, looking thin and disheveled. Dramatically ugly, if that's what you think. To be quite honest, I'm very stereotype about my profile. I always want to keep it real simple and on going but it seems destiny wants me to fight back and strive harder.

Let me tell you something about joining Project Runway?

I was one of the few people who have gone through the final screening. I did it first time with second thoughts that it can make me or break me. I told myself, If I join this, people would see me in my worst nightmare, in my worst circumstances, I know but I don't care. The only thing that's pushing me is my desire to help my family. Of course, If I win the prize, I will have my own shop, out of my little studio, isolated in the corner of our house. I also thought, what if I don't win? then struggle again, where my fallback is always my vision to survive.




I've always been the struggling young designer, who have always been eaten by pressure. Always on a rough road. The only thing that's keeping me now is my adrenaline and eagerness to make it successful someday. That someday, I would be the man of my mom and my grand mom. That I could give them the happiness they gave me, without even questioning myself for doing this to them. Give them the gratitude, that once and for all, I wouldn't be a fighter not without them. That my mission in this world is to protect them when they get old and be their shelter. I wouldn't have this kind of skills and talent for no reason.


my mom left me when I was 3 yrs old to work in abroad. My grandmom raised me then, even her eyes aren't complete. They are my heroes.

So tomorrow, my journey starts in Project Runway, as I live up with my vision and hopes for the future.

Creation is my life, fashion is my drug and pressure is my adrenaline.

Ever changing whim

You know in life, You'll meet a person who will have a great meaning to your life, your saving grace, the one will help you to achieve your dreams, as if God gave that person to you to save you and made you realized that everything is possible. I owe it to this girl. Maan pushed me to continue what I have been started as a designer, and helped me to hone my talent in styling. My first fashion collection would not be possible, if this girl didn't help me. I'm so sad that she's leaving, but of course happy because another good things are coming for her. She has been a wonderful friend and a partner. She has an eye for imperfectly beautiful things, making her works original. We imagine together, yes, even if I'm the more overkilled. We still do it. I'm so sorry If I didn't greet you on the day of your birthday (my bad), Kill me because of my workloads. I will miss you like crazy to death.

Maan, If you didn't bother me while I was working at INFONXX and offered a collaboration - siguro call center agent pa rin ako.

Thank you for believing in my VISION and for helping me to put what's inside of my brain into action. Bring my love wherever you are.

Running Around

So after Jerome and I went to his sewers, We went straight to Greenbelt. We didn't have any plans attending Manila Design Week only because we're not dressed up. You know, sometimes, we're not really spontaneous. But then we still came across to the event while looking for a restaurant to stay and have dinner. We saw Garovs and really happy with their work. It is my favorite. clap - clap. Clean and clever, That's how i describe it.


Garovs, Jerome and Me




Shawn Yao

Cool Change

I just realized that today wasn't really a bad day, Honey. Sitting here in Starbucks Greenhills is great too. When all I got from my brain just a moment ago were fireworks and chinese markets. Well, things that I've been looking forward to do for this week.

1. Sticker for my laptop, I couldn't find Jeff Buckley still.
2. Deadly Deadlines
3. Project Runway Season 2 Episode 1 Premiere (I'm so thin on TV)
4. Download Hot Chip, TV On The Radio and Beyonce Mp3s
5. Styling a TV Fantaserye (First time)
6. More Sewing
7. More Moisturizers
8. Going to Church
9. Thinking not to smoke anymore
10.My portfolio

AFTER

by jerome lorico

the passage swallowed the taxi
that took me from you
that pulled the hours
the moments
the gazes
Now capsuled in a cylinder
that is the wall
of concrete, of rocks
The asphalt vibrated
with the engine
a system connected
to a heart
in a chest
that won't be the same again
at the end of the tunnel

Zipper Parade

I first used zippers when I was featured in Preview's Young Designers To Watch for 2008 last year. We were asked to design a couture piece inspired of the country of our choice. I chose Russia - because of it's history - dark and powerful. From then, I was addicted to it and came out with different versions. Although, Some designers also use zippers as their details, which is fun. My take on zippers? I call it armorial chic. I posted some of the photos I have in my archives.


Preview September 2008


Mega (Best Collection for PFW Holiday 2008)


Mega March 2009, The Sexiest Zipper Dress I ever made


On The Runway PFW Holiday (Centipedes)


Preview March 2009


Karylle, Toni, Niki at Asap


Marie Claire April Last Ed 2009


From My Look Book


Pam Quiñones at Alive (mark's exhibit)


Divine Lee at Samsung Event


Alyanna Martinez at Metrowear

Me and My Living Brain

It's been years since the last time I wrote over the internet. All I could remember was the youthful exuberance that I had when I was in school, when I dropped out of college and entered fashion school. Livejournal days, Jeff Buckley, Lonely Street Corners, Thrift Stores, Vogue, Visionaire, Late Night Ordinary Buses, kept me alive, young as 22. I even worked as a bagger in this so called supermarket full of crap (always pays late), cinema vending? I've done that, Call Center? I've done that too - 3 fucking floating yrs, The I'm not gonna stop 'til I die moment (whatever you call it). I've done all of these because of my love for creativity, How many pounds I lost working 24 hrs? A lot. I needed them to sustain my execution towards my passion. Breathe it! Felt like life is short, if i'm not gonna do this now. Now I'm 25, never thought that I would even make this far like producing real clothes for beautiful people. Seeing my works on the glossy pages of magazines and even TV commercials. What I just knew then was making a dress is like making an art piece, with a nice neckline, progressive and calculated to frame a personality rather than sexiness. How exciting it was to play and think (Karen Elson or Stella Tennant per say) as an inspiration. I even dressed up like them (yes, androgyny). But what really makes me feel good now? I see the clothes that I designed, the ones you've seen from the fabric store, sew them on your own transitioning into something unexpected, full of surprises. I've always been so discreet about this not until I made this blog, kept it for a year, that thought, someday, this blog could be my room of imagination and dreams. And I'm right! This is so coming true..

My first magazine exposure (Mega September 2008 Issue) Best Of What's New

"A young designer with a highly calculated vision. Patrick's color blocked numbers emanate creative and skillful play"

My first collection for Philippine Fashion Week entitled Improvised Reflections

God Bless Mega Magazine.