Ruby Tuesday

I actually had fun today. No work, lots of sleep and eating, even my vitamins made me alive today. Tomorrow is the premiere of Project Runway Philippines Season 2. I really don't know what would I feel if see myself exposed in TV, looking thin and disheveled. Dramatically ugly, if that's what you think. To be quite honest, I'm very stereotype about my profile. I always want to keep it real simple and on going but it seems destiny wants me to fight back and strive harder.

Let me tell you something about joining Project Runway?

I was one of the few people who have gone through the final screening. I did it first time with second thoughts that it can make me or break me. I told myself, If I join this, people would see me in my worst nightmare, in my worst circumstances, I know but I don't care. The only thing that's pushing me is my desire to help my family. Of course, If I win the prize, I will have my own shop, out of my little studio, isolated in the corner of our house. I also thought, what if I don't win? then struggle again, where my fallback is always my vision to survive.




I've always been the struggling young designer, who have always been eaten by pressure. Always on a rough road. The only thing that's keeping me now is my adrenaline and eagerness to make it successful someday. That someday, I would be the man of my mom and my grand mom. That I could give them the happiness they gave me, without even questioning myself for doing this to them. Give them the gratitude, that once and for all, I wouldn't be a fighter not without them. That my mission in this world is to protect them when they get old and be their shelter. I wouldn't have this kind of skills and talent for no reason.


my mom left me when I was 3 yrs old to work in abroad. My grandmom raised me then, even her eyes aren't complete. They are my heroes.

So tomorrow, my journey starts in Project Runway, as I live up with my vision and hopes for the future.

Creation is my life, fashion is my drug and pressure is my adrenaline.